The City and Horses

Melodically devolving into madness

RUINS LYRICS

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SHADES 

If all the girls are wearing headphones

How will they hear me singing Belle and Sebastian?

How will they know that I mean well?

How will they know? How will they know?

 

If all the girls are wearing shades

When it's not even sunny out

How will they know what I'm all about?

How will they know? How will they know?

 

They'll never know me

Not even my first or middle names

They'll never know me

And I'm not even the worst at playing games  

 

They'll never know me

Not even the fears that rule my life

They'll never know me

Or spend a few years as my wife

 

If all the girls are wearing headphones

Then it's probably better that way

Because I'm not myself today

I'm not myself these days

 

If all the girls are wearing shades

That's better too I guess

Then they can’t see the way I dress

I look like a mess

 

They'll never see me

Not even the love in my eyes

They'll never see me

I'm just a thorn in their thighs

 

They'll never see me

Not even the guitar in my hand

They'll never see me

Next to the bar I can't stand up anymore

 

If all the girls are wearing headphones

And I got mine on, too

How will we know what to do?

How will we know? How will we know?

 

If all the girls are wearing shades

And I got my hat down low

How will we know where to go

How will we know?

We’ll never know

 

NEW ENGLAND

I live like a junkie

In a rented room

On the east side

 

With my toes on the floor

And my clothes in a ball

Brushed to one side

 

I'm packing my bag

Got a plan to get straight in New England

 

With my head on my bag

On a bus headed straight to New England

 

And when I get back

And you see I've changed

All the pieces the same

Just rearranged in a new way

In a new light will you see me?

 

I spit like a junkie

In a way I've become a stranger

Avoiding my friends

Every day I become stranger

 

I’m unpacking my bags

In a rented room in New England

 

With my head on the bed

And my eyes looking out at New England

 

And when I get back

And you see I've changed

All the pieces the same

Just rearranged in a new way

In a new light will you see me?

 

Nobody knows where I’ve been

Nobody knows where I’ve been

And I really don’t care

 

Nobody knows where I’ve been

My work doesn’t know where I’ve been

AndI really don’t care

 

And when I get back

And you see I've changed

All the pieces the same

Just rearranged in a new way

In a new light will you see me?

 

DRAG

Take two fingers

Put them in my nose

Drag me through glass doors

And racks of clothes

So everyone knows

 

I quit my job

I'm a punching bag

Even at 14 I knew

I'd be a fucking drag

I'd be a fucking drag to love

 

Take one collar

Wrap it around my neck

Drag me through dry walls

And across the deck

In front of the coat check girl

 

She knows the score

This ain't what it seems

Even at twenty I knew

We'd give up our dreams to love

 

SO

When once you sang me to sleep

When once your life was open to me

When once I’d knock on your window

And you'd knock on mine

 

Why'd you do me so?

 

When once we sat on your dad's couch

It was the biggest one in the house

When once you put your hand on my mouth

When your roommates came home

 

Why'd you do me so?

 

When once you kept your dress on

I gave you a bass guitar lesson

When once you asked me to kiss you

For the first time because you were scared to

 

Why'd you do me so?

 

SPACE

I'll give you space

I'll give you stars

I'll give you Pluto

I'll give you Mars

 

I'll be the moon at its apogee

If you promise soon you'll come back to me

 

I'll give you space

Like an invader

I'll be your zenith

You'll be my nadir

 

I’d swim the largest of Titan's lakes

To correct all my mistakes

 

I'll give you space

Watch the light travel

About as as fast

As I unravel

 

I'll give you time as we know it

I just hope that I don't blow it

 

When I give you space

Leave you alone

Face to face

Or on the phone

 

I’ll keep my hands in my pockets

I’ll keep my eyes in my sockets

I’ll give you space

 

I’ll keep my mouth shut and lock it

Till this tired lonely rocket

Comes down from space

 

I’ll give you time as we know it

I just hope that I don’t blow it

When I give you space

 

BERLIN

I wrote some songs for you

But you don't deserve them

You’ve got some masters in your life

And you serve them

 

I'll go to Berlin

Chat up the fraus

About the wrinkles in my life

And their brows will beat me down

 

I'm slipping through my life

It's not what I thought

I threw them all away

The clothes I bought

 

I had some promise

When I was young

Until I opened up my mouth

And I sung a song like this

 

I wanna go home

But I'm already there

So where, oh where do I go now?

 

I shared some bands with you

That you don't deserve

I’d wash my hands of you

If I had the nerve

 

I'll go to Berlin

Build up a wall

Things were simple

Before the fall

 

We were foolish

We were dumb

To think we'd be more

Than what we've become

 

It's time to rip it up

Pull out the seams

It's time to give up

All of our dreams

 

I wanna go home

But I'm already there

So where, oh where do I go now?

 

DON’T LOVE ME

If you wanna be happy

Don't love me

If you wanna be happy

Don't love me

If you wanna feel joy

Every time you see

The one you love

Then don't love me

 

I'm just a man

Trying to love you right

I'm not a child

When it's time to turn out the light

But I'm a boy

In a woman's world tonight

 

If you wanna be happy

Don't love me

If you wanna be happy

Don't love me

If you wanna feel joy

Every time you see

The one you love

Then don't love me

 

I swear I used to be just fine

I wasn't like this in 2009

I had a list of girls that I'd make mine

 

Caitlin, Katie, Natalia

Katie Jane, Courtney and Nadia

Caroline, Chelsea and Kimber

Leave me alone

 

MY FRIENDS DON’T KNOW

What have we done with our lives

We don't know

How the tick tocks disappeared from the clocks

We don't know

 

And the clothes I left on the patio

With butts of cigarettes

Who knows if I told you

But I just figa let's

Pretend we don't change

And who cares who stares

When we're acting strange

 

Started off with a pretty face but

We don't know

How the sun faded the colors on us

We don't know

 

And the clothes I left in the bedrooms

Of those childish childless men

Who knows what they did with them

I never told my friend

That I wanted to change

And I cared they stared when we acted strange

                  

I gotta put an end to this

My friends don’t know how bad it is

(There is only one way

To run away)

 

He said I have the most perfect lips

He's ever seen

And he'd kiss them all the time

If it were not obscene

 

And he meant well and he means well

As far as I can tell

But you see I don't love no one

Who already loves me

I'm sorry to confess

If I'm selfish then I'm a selfish fucking mess

 

I gotta put an end to this

My friends don’t know how bad it is

(There is only one way

To run away)

 

OLD DAYS

You sang me to sleep once before

Would you do it once more?

I'm tired like one of those old jokes

I'm turning into one of those old folks

 

Who talk about the old days

I'm talking about our old days

And how they never stay

How they never stay

 

I sang you to sleep when you asked me to

I know it meant something to you

But you're tired of my old jokes

I don't blame you I've become one of those old folks

 

Who talk about the old days

I'm talking about our old days

And how they never stay

How they never stay

 

LOVE TO GIVE

You need love

And I got love to give

You need love

So let me love you, kid

Let me tell you what I see now

 

You look so sad at work

Even your hair is blue

You take the bus to your folks

Is there anything I can do?

I'll tell you what I'll do now

 

You need love

And I got love to give

You need love

So let me love you, kid

Let me tell you what I see now

 

Even the Rolling Stones

Ain't doing the trick

I can't play guitar like Keith

But I'll try be your Mick

I'll be your Charlie Watts

 

You need love

And I got love to give

You need love

So let me love you, kid

Let me tell you all about it

 

I'm just as bad as you

Maybe badder too

More or less

 

I'm just as sad as you

Maybe sadder too

More or less

 

You turn your head when I talk

You stole my sister's shirt

You only go for the drinks

I know you're hurt

I'll tell you what I'll do now

 

You need love

And I got love to give

You need love

So let me love you, kid

 

SELTZER

Just don't tell me it's over

I don't think it is

Just don't tell me our seltzer

Has lost its fizz

 

There’s some cold ones in the fridge now, honey

I'll grab a cherry on the way back, honey

 

They say if you don't cry, it isn't love

Then I must love you a lot

 

One more song on your uke now, honey

Pulp’s playing on the juke now, honey

 

I'm not asking for your hand

Or love till the end

Or to give you babies

And to be your boyfriend

 

I just wanna hear your laugh now, honey

And sit by the bath now, honey

 

Just don’t tell me it’s over

I think it is

I see our seltzer

Has lost its fizz

 

But there’s still cold ones in the fridge now, honey

I’ll grab a cherry on the way back, honey

 

RUINS

I ruin things

Literally things

And figuratively, too

I've ruined a lot

 

I'm not really present

I don't want presents

I don’t buy gifts for anyone

The fear it never lifts, it's never done

On a sunny day, a sunny day like this

 

I'm chasing cabs, I'm chasing buses

My friends don't know what the fuss is all about

My hands are fists

On a sunny day like this

 

It's just me and the junkies

Running the streets with these monkeys on our backs

They’re talking chunks out

 

I ruin things

Literally things

And figuratively, too

I've ruined a lot these last few

 

I'm not really present

Sometimes I'm not pleasant

I don't do the lindy hop these days

I have to put a stop to this craze

On a sunny day, a sunny day like this

 

I'm chasing cabs, I'm chasing buses

My friends don't know what the fuss is all about

My hands are fists

On a sunny day like this

 

It's just me and the junkies

Running the streets with these monkeys on our backs

They’re taking chunks out

On a sunny day like this